Life has officially been insane! Ever since my birthday it went into full chaotic mode.
To preface all of the more negative stuff, I have to start with the fact that I am very thankful to have such loving family! My birthday was very fun! I had a family party at my Aunt Jerlyn's with her family and my Grandma. They had lasagna, garlic bread, and Black Forest cake that my Aunt made. I don't have pictures yet, but I will tell you that it looked and tasted amazing! All the presents I received were thoughtful and appreciated. Especially the Itunes gift cards I had been begging for, haha. After that we had fun looking at a scrapbook of the last year- it was fun sharing all the memories we had!
The next night Trevor took me out to dinner at Cracker Barrel- you may not expect it, but they have a killer steak for not being a steakhouse! Not to mention I am in love with their macaroni and cheese. I may or may not have gotten three sides of it... :P After that we went to a movie for the first time in a while, which was fun. There wasn't very many people in the theatre which made it nice. All in all a fun evening!
I still can't believe I'm twenty now! I'm still grieving my teenage years... I think I might be having a quarter-life crisis. How did I get from elementary school to living in a different state than my parents? I still remember being in Kindergarden! The time went by so fast! And now I'm supposed to start this big adventure and go to school and get a career started and get married and have kids. I'm too young to do all of that! And what happens when it all goes just as fast as the last twenty years? Why can't I put my life in slow motion so I can enjoy everything longer? I'm a little freaked out about all of this, I'm not going to lie. :P
Anyway, here's the more stressful part of my life:
First, I got my own sub-department at work, giving me about ten times more responsibility and things to do. Especially since I got the hardest department we have in Ladies because my managers think I'm awesome and can do it because I have an eye for style and what not. Well as much as I appreciate their faith in me, it's stressful. But as always there are pros and cons and I'm getting more hours that I needed- which lessens my financial stress, something that's always beneficial. Not to mention I'm learning all these skills and gaining experience. You would be surprised how much work goes into getting clothes on the floor to sell.
Second, I started having chest pain and a fluttering feeling in my chest one day after work and so I went to Urgent Care. I had an abnormal EKG and so they ambulenced me to the ER at the closest hospital. They ran some more tests and finally cleared me to go after referring me to a cardiologist and giving me some medicine. That medicine turned out to be really bad for me because of my age and certain pre-existing conditions, so I was taken off that.
So now I am doing all the tests that my cardiologist scheduled. I had one monitor on for 24 hours, and will have the current moniter on until November 11th. It communicates the information through Blackberry to a Monitoring Center, where they can call me and add symptoms into the information and make sure everything is going right. It's kind of crazy how they're using technology.
I still have to do a stress test and an echocardiogram. I'm convincing myself that nothing is wrong. I mean, whenever I and the doctors thought I had a possibility of having cancer or something seriously wrong with my thyroid, nothing was wrong. Nothing is ever seriously wrong when I go to the doctors, so it can't be now! :) So far the only thing I've found out is that I am prediabetic, but that runs in the family and I'm hypoglycemic, so that wasn't very shocking.
The only thing that's bothering me lately is how tired I am. Sure there is chest pain, and that can be scary when it decides to really hurt, but most of the time it's just achy. The fatigue is what is really getting to me. I'm tired of being tired! At first I thought it was just the medicine the ER had prescribed me and it's true that the fatigue was worse when I was on it, but I still don't feel anywhere near as energetic as I did before all of this. Then again it's probably just stress and work making me tired. What happened to 20 being my physical prime??? I feel lied to! :P
So that's my life and why I haven't been updating as much. I'm kind of just trying to get by on a day to day basis. I know that's a little bit pathetic, I'm not really going through that much, but that's just how it is for me. I kind of turn into a hermit when I'm stressed. That way I don't have to have people ask how I'm doing and have to unload all of this unto them, like I did you! Then again, you can stop reading at any time so it's a little more voluntary. :)
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